Poetry

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Poetry

tHiS BeAuTiFuL MeSs

These are my most recent poems. They were all written in 2003. Please enjoy but be aware that they are copyrighted!

Rain

Apologies fall upon me

like a summer rain

But no amount of remorse

can erase this amount of pain

Promises made are promises broken

And yet they are made once more

Trying to believe these words that are spoken

but what am I trying for?

Wanting to know that I am loved

and wanting it to be true

Trying to make it through the pain

Fighting my way through the rain

to be truly loved by you

Thinking about it always

but always wanting to forgive

It will be forgotten one of these days

until then I've just got to survive

Can I believe the words in the air

and trust that they are true?

Beginning to be numb to the pain

and now there is a lot less rain

But am I truly loved by you?

No one

I'm crawling in the dark

Crying out for help

But there is no one there

For me

I'm lost and I'm alone

With nowhere left to go

And no one is there

For me

Isn't anyone going to help me

Come and help me

I'm on my own

I'm so lost and scared

Doesn't someone care?

That I'm in need of saving, please get me out of here

I need someone's help

And I, I am scared

Hurt

No one can ever know

It must remain hidden

I feel it's been a million years

I think I might explode

Because I've been hurt

So very, very bad

Why did it have to be me?

Da**it, I just can't stand it

Had to go open up to you

You went and whispered, now everyone knows

It should have remained locked away within me

Because I've been hurt

It hurts so very bad

I can't imagine why it was me



	My Mind My mind...my mind I'm losing my mind I can't take all these things at once I'm so confused I feel so used What are you doing to me? Every time I look at the person staring back at me What do I see? I can't even look in the mirror anymore It's myself I must ignore Change my mind...change my mind I change my mind like I change my clothes Each decision more hasty than the last Can't forget all that happened in the past Why do you say that you love me When I know that you can't possibly mean it? Why do I return the reply When my mind tells me it's over? You think i'm still changing my mind But my mind is made up this time You thought that I would forgive and forget Well I still haven't forgiven you yet. The future to you looks sunny and bright But do you remember who said goodbye that night? It was me, the confused girl in the mirror And no longer are you here And that is how it will stay for awhile And day by day I'll remember how to smile I'm growing up, getting stronger each day Telling myself, "It will be okay." My mind...my mind I have lost my mind So many things to go through Trying to do it without you And getting better at it all the time. After All You are the reason the sun rises each day And the reason that I wake If love could move mountains Ours would make the earth shake No matter what all the people do or say Or what measures we must take Someone said "Love equals pain" But ours cannot break Because after all These two have become one After all Love like this can't be undone Every night I lie awake and pray "Dear Lord my sould please take If at all I cause you any pain Or your tender heart I break" Because after all These vows are forever After all We are meant to be together Loving You Too I go to sleep every night Wondering who you'll become Waiting for the day you arrive And I can hold you close to me Every night in my dreams I'm holding you, loving you And someone is next to me Looking and loving you too When will it all happen So that it all can start? Will you love me immediately Or will I have to prove myself to you? Sometimes I daydream about you Unable to picture a face Wishing that you were here So I could hold you close and dear Dreamers I'm just a dreamer I always say "If only" I'm such a dreamer "If only I had something" Something to take my mind off this pain Something to make the sun come through the rain I am dreaming Dreaming of a better life Having everything we need And together we'll be Dreamers I wrote "My Mind" on May 5, 2004..."No One" was written with the melody of Avril Lavigne's "I'm With You" in mind. I wrote "After All" about my wedding day and "Loving You Too" was written while I was pregnant with my daughter and I was trying to imagine how she would look and what it would be like when she was born. To read more of my poems, look up Cheyla Fend or Jerushalem Weaver on http://www.poetry.com

These poems are all copyrighted!